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Please take one minute out of your day and watch this. It’s the ugly truth.

I hear no lies.


I did not think she would go there but then she did I literally screamed YAAAAAASSSSS BITCH DRAG THEM LIKE YOU’RE TRYNA WALK A CAT

oh shit


I’ve come to terms to make the month of August, the “Me month”…And it’s somewhat hard….hahaha I have to laugh at myself, so I don’t fall into a deep cliff of emotions and enter a danger zone, making it to me very hard to get out. 

I decided to don’t talk to friends, and step away from friends because I feel like I’m not giving my total potential as a human being…you know? And I am crippled by life experience, making me think that I don’t receive, what I give emotionally to others…and I know, it’s really vain and selfish of me asking for someone that can understand me and talk and share life experience for me to get better…Yeah it is, and I can hear people say:”search profissional help, they can help you” and to that I say:”DUDE…I’ve had countless sources of professional help and NONE of them help…actually…they only made it worse…So doctors are not my main focus.

So I decided to do give ,what I usually give to others, to myself: Time, and understanding and advice, and follow it. 

I decided not to envolve with anyone that is negative…I don’t need that negativity, sort your problems out, and then come talk to me. I know that game where I invest time in helping others and then they are great and well, while I’m over here emotionally drained and with a huge urge to just kill myself. 

And don’t get me wrong, I love my friends. They are very talented, sweet and caring friends, but the:”…well I don’t know what to say to that…” Is really hard to hear at this point. It makes me feel like I’m a total nutjob and broken person…And it’s alright, I still love them to death…but I need more.

So I’m going solo for a while and try to find what I’m searching for: peace with myself, happiness and change.

And I say it’s hard for me to do so, because going on a journey of self dicovery is always hard…but I have to do it, I have to find THAT balance between, being the Old Richard, who’s loving towards everyone, easy to trust, funny and smart, with the Responsible Richard, who’s in charge of my emotions, and select the ones I should be giving my living time on this Earth and make the right choices and better…basicly I need to know how to grow up, in order to make it and be happy again. xD

Wish me luck